COLORADO SPRINGS, Colo. (AP) 鈥 Reese Congleton grew up in Colorado Springs feeling as if she had to keep her queer identity quiet, and because she hadn鈥檛 come out to many people, she was nervous to go to Club Q for the first time.
But on Monday she recalled how the rainbow lights bounced around the room and the lively crowd shared her excitement. Congleton, 19, said she went from feeling like she had been merely tolerated in public to 鈥渂eing celebrated. 鈥 It鈥檚 really special not to feel alone.鈥
In the mostly conservative city of Colorado Springs, Club Q has long been a go-to spot for members of the LGBTQ community 鈥 a safe space where many felt they could let down their guard and just be themselves. It鈥檚 a place where LGBTQ teenagers can鈥檛 wait to be old enough to enter. It鈥檚 one of the first spots new LGBTQ residents are sent to meet others in the community and feel a sense of belonging.
But that sense of safety was shattered this weekend when as people were drinking and dancing 鈥 killing five people and leaving 17 with gunshot wounds. As the community , many were also grieving because it happened at a place that's seen as a sanctuary for many longing to fit in.
鈥淲e weren鈥檛 out harming anyone. We were in our space, our community, our home, enjoying ourselves like everybody else does," said Joshua Thurman, who was on the dance floor when the shooting started. "How can we now do anything knowing something like this can happen?鈥
An 18-and-up gay and lesbian nightclub, Club Q features dancing, drag shows, karaoke and drag bingo, according to its website. Its Facebook page boasts 鈥淣obody Parties like Club Q!," and posts flyers for a Halloween party, a shots party, as well as trivia. Some described it as a cozy, welcoming place that drew those who wanted to sit down for a meal and relax, as well as those who wanted to dance into the morning hours.
The club's doors remained closed after the shooting, as many people left flowers at a growing memorial nearby.
Stoney Roberts, the southern Colorado field organizer for One Colorado, an LGBTQ advocacy group, described it as a sacred space and said the shooting felt like a 鈥渄esecration.鈥
Roberts, who identifies as a nonbinary trans person, graduated from high school in 2007 and couldn鈥檛 wait to be old enough to go to Club Q, which, Roberts said, back then was one of the only safe spaces in Colorado Springs for LGBTQ people.
鈥淚 came of age there,鈥 said Roberts, who performed in Club Q鈥檚 drag shows from 2009 through 2011. 鈥淚f it were not for Club Q, if it were not for the experiences I had there, I would not be the person I am.鈥
A sense of home for members of the LGBTQ community is what Matthew Haynes, one of the club鈥檚 co-founders, hoped to create when he started the club two decades ago.
鈥淭here have been so many happy stories from Club Q,鈥 Haynes told The Colorado Sun. 鈥淧eople meeting and relationships being born. So many celebrations there. We鈥檙e a family of people more than a place to have a drink and dance and leave.鈥
Colorado鈥檚 laws are now among the country鈥檚 friendliest to LGBTQ people, though it wasn鈥檛 always that way, and Colorado Springs was particularly unwelcoming.
The city of 480,000 located 70 miles (110 kilometers) south of Denver has long held a prominent place for the American evangelical Christian movement. Focus on the Family, a conservative Christian ministry that lobbied for years against LGBTQ rights, has its headquarters there.
After the attack, Focus on the Family president Jim Daly said in a statement that the shooting 鈥渆xposes the evil and wickedness inside the human heart. We must condemn in the strongest terms possible the taking of innocent life.鈥
The city's extensive military presence also contributes to its conservative slant. It's home to the United States Air Force Academy, the North American Aerospace Defense Command (NORAD), Peterson Space Force Base and a large Army base, Fort Carson. Many military veterans also live there.
After the shooting, Colorado Springs Police Chief Adrian Vasquez said in a statement that Club Q is a safe haven for LGBTQ people, and 鈥渆very citizen has the right to be safe and secure in our city; to go about our beautiful city without fear of being harmed or treated poorly."
Congleton and Ashlyn May, 18, said growing up in Colorado Springs they often felt they had to keep their true selves hidden. May recalled being looked at with disgust when, in a middle school class, she proposed that Queen鈥檚 song 鈥淚 Want to Break Free鈥 was about exploring coming out as gay.
Even now, 鈥渋t鈥檚 scary to hold hands in public,鈥 Congleton said.
But Club Q gave them a place to be themselves. May regularly attends bingo on Wednesday evenings, where a drag queen鈥檚 compliment about an outfit tore away their insecurities. 鈥淵es, I am hot!鈥 said May, who was excited to bring their queer younger sister to Club Q for bingo this week to show her 鈥渋t鈥檚 okay to be queer, and it鈥檚 okay to love who you love."
Justin Godwin, 24, and his friend visited Club Q for the first time Saturday and left in an Uber just minutes before the shooting. He said he鈥檚 been thinking of all the people who were dancing, sitting at the bar and enjoying the night.
鈥淭hey鈥檙e all there for different reasons, whether they鈥檙e regulars, their first time, they鈥檙e celebrating something. It鈥檚 just supposed to be a fun environment where we feel safe, where people aren鈥檛 judging you, giving you looks or anything,鈥 Godwin said. 鈥淵ou鈥檙e just being yourself, like no matter how you look, like everyone just feels welcome.鈥
鈥淚t鈥檚 just crazy to think someone had the intentions to go in there and just do any harm to anybody,鈥 he said. 鈥淚t鈥檚 just sad for people who find a home somewhere and it gets ruined.鈥
Korrie Bovee, who identifies as queer, said Club Q has been the cornerstone of a community of like-minded people who have each others鈥 backs, in a city where verbal harassment is not uncommon and freedom to be oneself is not always found in schools or churches.
鈥淢y kids live here,鈥 the 33-year-old said, wiping a tear from her eye. 鈥淚t鈥檚 just hard to know I鈥檓 raising my kids in this context.鈥
Roberts said that as a Black queer person, most places in Colorado Springs seem welcoming, but there is always that 鈥渦nderlying nuance of realizing where you are.鈥
At Club Q: 鈥淵ou can take a deep breath and you can be your authentic self.鈥
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Forliti reported from Minneapolis. Associated Press writers Jamie Stengle in Dallas and David Crary in New York contributed.
